Saturday, December 12, 2009

I hate feeling this way......

Some of you know that I suffer from Depression! I was diagnosed in the 8th grade with clinical depression. It was a scary time because I didn't know what was wrong with me. I would have uncontrollable crying spells, days where I didn't want to get out of the bed, labored breathing, aching bones, it was just crazy! So crazy I had to be hospitalized and medicated. That is a time in my life I try to forget, but It has made me a stronger person!

The holidays are happy and sad for me all at the same time. I don't know why? yesterday was one of those days! Where I cried my eyes out, for no apparent reason! I haven't had any bouts this year with depression and felt I was on a roll! But then bang!

I have learned so many ways to cope with it! I have not been medicated since I was 14 years old. I learned to pray! and pray hard!!!!!

Today I am feeling less anxious! I don't feel that weight on my chest!
It comes it goes......
I am thankful to God Almighty that it was a quick bout!

I have been laid up for days because of it!
I am so thankful to have such a supportive family!

i am the the only that has it in my family or maybe I should say I am the only one who was diagnosed with it!

I think my brother suffers from it too!

When I was young I used to question Why me????

But, I think having this has made me a better person!
A stronger person...
It definitely made me closer to God!


Ms. Insatiable said...

Dana, you must be in my head right now because at this very moment, all I want to do is crawl under a rock and stay there. I stay in prayer and I'm calming down a little but Lord, I need some hands laid on me quick.

emily said...

Sending positive thoughts your way! Hope that today is better than yesterday....take it one step at a time :)

Anonymous said...

Dana, you are in my prayers and you're right you are a strong woman. Just keep praying and be strong!!