Thursday, March 06, 2008

Feeling better....

.... you know why?

I totally DISCONNECTED myself for the last couple of days from everything and everyone...

I turned off the phones....
I sent the kids with my mom and dad....
and locked myself in my room....

For once, I was DANA....
not Dana the wife, Dana the daughter, Dana the mother, Dana the sister, Dana the friend,

My only role was being myself.....
I just needed a break....

A break from all the bullshit that seems to follow me ...

I had a heart to heart with Baptiste, I basically told him what I NEEDED from him, and if he couldn't do it.... then hey ....it is what it is...
No more Mrs. Nice guy!

For once I was in control,
I am driving the damn bus now!

Sometimes, PEOPLE can take you for granted....
They get used to a routine.....
and they forget they need to do the same things they did to get you interested, are the same things they need to do to keep you interested....

Baptiste, seemed to lose focus.....
I think he really forgot what he had waiting at home for him every night...

A GOOD ASS WOMAN...
A down ass woman
I was the Bonnie to his Clyde...

A ride or die chick....

And he wasn't appreciating that....

It sucks that some men don't appreciate Ladies, they like BITCHES, and that is what I had to become.......

I hate to be this frank, especially with my little cyber friends...

but I am not sugar coating anything anymore....

I am a real person, and what I am dealing with is real.....
And my real friends, will support me...

I had to take some drastic measures, but sometimes that is what you have to do be HEARD...

FEEL ME!

Today, I am feeling fine....
Dandy
Happy
Elated
Relaxed
Content
In control
Understood....

I don't think I will ever have a problem out Mr. Baptiste again!
He has learned a valuable and hard lesson...

If men would use this principle they would be okay...

"Don't do anything that you wouldn't want your mate to do, because if it's good for you, it's good for them". That goes for women too...

Before you do anything, think about it real hard....
Is it worth it? How would I feel if they did this to me?
and I think that would be formula to a happy and successful relationship...

On a lighter note, I have been reading and writing, I haven't been feeling creative lately, so I haven't been creating anything, but I have been shopping...

Today, my mom and I went to MICHAELS again, my mom wants to convert all her pierced earring to clips, so we went to buy the materials for that, and you know I came out with atleast 3 bags....

Then she took me to a place called Pottery something, not Pottery barn, but its very inexpensive ..They have all types of candles, home decor, art, storage ideas, plants, dishes, pots, pans, all types of household products for very little money, I bought some things, but my mom as always apoils me and bought me an area rug, a cute vase with flowers, some storage containers, and cute trunk....

Guys this is my new LOVE....
TRUNKS....it is my new Thrift store hunt...Love vintage trunks...

My sister is crazy, she said they give her the creeps...How could trunks give you the creeps?

Anyway, while I was at Michaels, I went down the bead aisle, I am so ready to learn how to bead. I bought some stuff to play around with. Baptiste is scared, because he said I need another hobby like I need a hole in the head, he's probably right, but I love jewelry, and if I can make it for cheaper than I buy it, then its worth it, right?

Well, I am off to bed....

I am dog tired!

4 comments:

Chit Chat With Divagirlrn said...

I'm so glad you're feeling better Dana! Don't forget to take care of you too! God Bless!

Beautiful said...

You preach girl...Too bad my DH is my XDH. I did what you did but he wasn't listening to me. Now he wants what he took for granted. I know that I am better off without him in my life. I can love him but he walked out on us. I pray for you serenity,constant love, and appreciation. Just be you!!

Perfect Mess said...

Girl I have been where you were!!! And sometimes we all just need to get reaquainted with ourselves. Good for you!!!

I love this blog. I will be back!

©hoklateRain said...

I lived what you were experiencing... I know the feelings and it's ok to take a "me break".