Monday, March 10, 2008

Validation

I don't know if this has ever happened to you, but you wake up and see things through clear eyes. It's almost like someone finally opened up the shades, after being in the dark for so long. That is the best way I can describe it. I believe they call it an "Eureka" moment or an "aha" moment.

Clarity! that's it!

Today, I finally am feeling alright....
Okay...

With who I am! Comfortable in my own skin! Realizing, finally, what truly MATTERS in life!

What matters to me is:

Loving myself, Loving my children, My relationship with God, My relationship with my Family and friends, taking time to just BREATHE, being myself (no matter who I am around), LETTING GO.....(which is so hard for me to do...), living in the present, not in the past, enjoying the small and minute things in life and not TAKING myself of OTHERS too seriously...

My weekend was wonderful....
no drama!
YOu know why? I simply don't allow it.
I don't submit to it...

I realized that YOU BECOME, what YOU SURROUND yourself around...

If you want to be rich, then you should surround yourself with affluent people
If you want to be positive then you should surround yourself around POSITIVE people...

There is an old saying that rings true "When you sleep with dogs, you wake up with fleas".

That is soooo true!

I found that even your own family can be TOXIC, to you!
I can't stand people who are so Negative all the time, but I myself had started to become Negative and pessimistic ....

So, what should you do?

I just disconnected myself from all NEGATIVITY....
and I didn't care who it was or what it was?

I did for my OWN SANITY....

What have I been doing, surrounding myself around people who are positive and UPBEAT. Uplifting people or as BONNIE would say "Balcony people".

In the last couple of years, I noticed myself more DEPRESSED than usual, more ANGRY, more Negative....

and when I looked in the mirror, I did not like the person staring back at me...

I knew I needed to change...

So I worked on DANA first and then I started add and delete, some people from my life...

I had too~

And my life is running like a calming stream now....NO WAVES....lol

I enjoyed my weekend, the kids were with my mom........

I indulged myself with some herbal tea and a hot bubble bath.........
I napped ......

Gave myself a facial......
Went shopping with my niece Lattaniah on Friday, went out to hear Baptiste do his thing...
Saturday went out with friends.....
Sunday went to church ....
and came home and crashed.....

No waves, no choppy waters, no DRAMA!!!!!

and after seeing how this weekend went, I attend to make every day forward like this....

No craziness!

Still no creativeness this weekend, but I do plan finishing up some projects during the week. I will keep you posted!

Thanks for all of your encouraging words and prayers....

Until next time

4 comments:

Perfect Mess said...

Your post reminds me of one of my favorite inspirations--Chickens Can't Fly...

I have been there myself, and at times I have to remind myself that I am in control of my feelings.

I hope you continue to take care of you, the rest will fall into place.

Gotta Let it Out said...

I'm on the same page as you today. On that "Let it Go" tip. No negativity should be able to ever steal your joy.

©hoklateRain said...

Isn't life grand when you clean house of toxic thoughts, mess, and other folks bs??? Reading your post I thought about Maya Angelou who lives without the negativity...she doesn't allow it in her house or in her personal space. We breathe in what we are- positive spirits breathes positive vibes.

BonnieRose said...

so happy you're on the mend gf.. you are right.. it's the ppl u surround urself with.. that will make all the difference.. balcony ppl are so important.
It's how I try to live my life.
I need those ppl.. for the time in my life, when I myself, are feeling down... with no way out. big hugs, gf, I am really proud of you..