I am just sick....

As a child I was raised on MOTOWN music....
but I was in love with the JACKSON 5....
There was one in the group that stuck out....
and that WAS MICHAEL JACKSON......

When I was a small child it was a innocent love, like loving Santa Claus or the Easter Bunny...

but when Off the Wall came out! and I saw the Rock with you Video! That is when I first thought.....DAMN HE FINE!!!!!

I HAD THE BIGGEST CRUSH ON MICHAEL JACKSON!!!!!!!!
I thought he was so FINE IN THRILLER AND BILLIE JEAN! OMG!!!!!

Do you remember BUTTONS? I think i had over 300 Michael Jackson buttons. His posters were plastered all over my bedroom walls and ceilings...

My diary consisted of: Dear Diary, when I am older I want to marry Michael Jackson, .....LOL

Seriously....
I had the Beat it Jacket, the red jacket with all the black zippers, I put penny's my penny loffers, don't think I spelled that right, but any hoo....I had the glittered glove.

And when Thriller came out! I learned every single move to that video. I remember recording it and rewinding it over and over to get the dance steps just right!

My brother was in a talent show and he played one of the Zombies and I remember practicing with him and being so proud of my brother....

I started having crushes on any boy that looked similiar to Michael, nice baby hair, gerry curl, killer smile!!!!! OmgI I will remember his BEAUTIFUL SMILE!!!!!!!!!!!

Do you remember the Jackson's 5 cartoon!!!!! I used to watch that allllllll the time!!!!!

I remember watching the Motown Reunion show, when Michael did Billie Jean and danced with his brothers......

When he threw off that hat and did the moon walk, I about DIED!!!!!!!! I WAS HOARSE THE NEXT DAY FROM SCREAMING!!!!!

MOST PEOPLE love Thriller or Beat it or Billie Jean, but my favorite song, is OFF THE WALL......I Don't know what it is about that song, but it get's inside my soul! Ask my family, let that song come on, I am going to act a SUPREME FOOL! YOU BETTA GET OUT OF MY WAY!!!!! Because I will start jumping up and down, and it's not even a conscious movement. That song completely takes me over. I love it! One of his greatest songs in my opinion!

Say what you want about Mike....
I will never remember Michael for all the scandals that surrounded his life,

I will remember him FOR THE GREAT MUSICIAN he was....

He was talented BEYOND WORDS....
I don't think the world was ready for MICHAEL JACKSON...
His musical genius is BEYOND our time....

I know that he is entertaining everyone in HEAVEN....
They are rocking and singing and dancing and having a good time up there.....

Michael Jackson will never be gone.....

His music will live on for an ETERNITY.....
Sleep on Michael....
You will be missed,

BUT NEVER FORGOTTEN
I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!

Helllo blog! My name is Dana, do you remember me?

I have an addiction! I have a couple of addictions, and their names are TWITTER AND FACEBOOK!

I swear ever since I found those two, I have neglected you, MY BELOVED BLOG! I am sorry! I will never forsake you again!

Ok, now that the melodrama is done.....

I have been a busy little bee!

Trying to get this house unpacked!

Keeping the kids busy SO THEY DON'T GET BORED! And kids can get bored easy at least my kids can!!!! They like to GO, GO, GO, GO, ALL THE TIME!!!!!

I am happy that they all have activities to keep them busy for most of the summer! Jaree signed up for a Summer Reading Program at the Library and they have all types of fun activiites for the kids! One of the things I love is the TEEN TWILIGHT PROM! Where the kids get to dress up like their favorite characters from Twilight and mingle and socialize, then they get to watch the movie! They have Lock-ins, arts and crafts, video games, movies on the lawn, and other fun stuff!!!! Jaree loves it!!!!!!!

Jariel starts Football camp soon!!!!!! He loves football and we decided to let the basketball go for awhile (it almost killed Baptiste, LOL) and try football! LOL He starts camp in July! He is so excited!!!!!!

Bee is in Drivers Ed for the summer, he just got his permit so you know what we have been doing! Letting him drive! He needs 90 hours of driving outside of school. He drives well!!!! I can't complain, but not looking forward to what comes next. Mom "Can I borrow your car". He will get his own car THANKS TO MY PARENTS, once he graduates high school!!!!! Which is summer of next year! He wants an Impala. Wonder how long that will last once he figures out how much it will cost to insure it! LOL

Jaree will start Cheerleading at the same time Jariel starts football!! She is super duper excited!!!!!! And I am too! I was a cheerleader from 1st grade until 8th and switched teams in high school and was on POMS!!!!!! So I love that she is following in mommy's foot steps! LOL

I believe in keeping children busy! If they are busy, there's no time to get into trouble.

Ever heard of "AN IDLE MIND, IS A DEVILS WORKSHOP".....

my philosophy!

I try to keep my children in some type of activity, so that they will have SOMETHING TO DO!!!!!

I was a busy child as well! Cheerleading, gymnastics, ballet, tap, jazz, karate, day camp, MY MOM KEPT ME BUSY!!!!!!!

I try to keep an agenda of things to do with the kids!

Even when we are at home, I find things that they can do! Like family reading night, family game night, family movie night, Cook for your parents night, we have water balloon fights, load up the super soakers and have water fights, craft night ( usually just me and Jaree), but we do a lot as a family! and I love that!!!!!!!!!!!!

My kids are getting older now and they whine more about the family stuff, especially the 16 year old, but we atleast have to do one family thing a week!!!!!!! I DON'T CARE WHAT PLANS YOU HAVE, their is NO NEGOTIATING! LOL

OK, OFF MY SOAP BOX,

I HAVE NOT SCRAPPED IN A MONTH GUYS!!! I am having withdrawls!!!!

Can't wait to get everything set up so that I can get back to my crafting!

I also want to start some new things thanks TO MY BLOGGER FRIENDS, ADRIENNE, PATRICE, TONI, AND ERICA!!!!!!!!! I am going to try to SEW! Baptiste and I have been looking at sewing machines at Joann's and I am just going to go for it!!!! I have a crazy body type and its hard finding clothes that fit me just right! So this is another reason for wanting to learn to sew. Plus, my grandmother was the best seamstress in the city of Chicago!!!! I used to help her thread her bobbin, and play on her sewing machine all the time!

I also want to learn to knit and bead! As if I need any more hobbies!!! But I do!!!!! Especially sewing and beading!!!!!!

I said this before, but you have to have PEACE OF MIND, to learn and I didn't have that in CCHills!!!! Now that I have moved on......I think it will be easy!

Wish me luck!

This has become much longer than I planned, so I think I will end it with an...

UNTIL NEXT TIME......

A couple of good men

There are GOOD MEN OUT THERE......

these two are an example of GOOD MEN....







MY daddy is a very good example of a good father. My dad spoiled us kids rotten. But was stern and strict. I used to hate that, but now I am grateful. Being a parent, I appreciate my up bringing. PAPA DIDN'T TAKE NO MESS! He demanded his respect and didn't settle for anything else. We knew we couldn't pull it with DADDY! He still don't play! LOL

He spoils his grandkids rotten, but will get on them too, if need be! LOL
I love my dad. I am a daddy's girl at heart! I can get anything from my daddy. Mommy knows that too! I love being the baby girl and I thank God for my dad!!!!!!!!!







Baptiste is such a wonderful FATHER, HUSBAND, PROVIDER, a God fearing good man...
and he is such a doting father...

He works like a Hebrew slave and still manages to take time with the kids!
He even counts me out sometimes and will just take the kids and go!
I love watching him interact with our children...

They love him sooooo much and his love for them just exudes from every orifice of his being!
I am so blessed and so are my children!
It's amazing to me how great a father he is, being that his father died when he was only 8 months old. He never had a father figure in his life.

We were only 18 years old when my oldest child was born and he NEVER once ran from his RESPONISIBLITIES as a father. He was with me 250% of the way! Whew, I am getting emotional talking about it. I love this man with my WHOLE HEART and I THANK GOD FOR HIM!!!!
I am blessed to have these two wonderful men in my life and I thank God for them both!
Happy Father's day daddy and Baptiste!!!!!!!!

I am drowning in BOXES

........moving is NOT FUN!
omg! I am so tired of UNPACKING, I want to scream!
But, I won't complain, because I LOVE MY NEW HOUSE.

Can't wait to get it all done, so I can share my HUMBLE ABODE with you guys!!!!!!!!!
I have beeen out of the old house since May 3oth, stayed with my mom do for 2 1/2 weeks while the new house was being worked on....I love my PARENTS, but I DO NOT EVER, EVER, NEVER want to live with them AGAIN IN LIFE! LOL

I LOVE VISITING, but not LIVING! and that's all I am going to say about that!

You guy don't know the BIG BURDEN that has been lifted from my SHOULDERS.

I FINALLY FEEL LIKE I CAN BREATHE. I CAN RELAX. I CAN LET MY HAIR DOWN.
I don't have to look over my shoulder or worry about my kids when they walk around!
PRAISE GOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
THANK YA JESUS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I feel so BLESSED! I AM SO THANKFUL THAT I was ABLE to get my children out of that HELL HOLE!!!!!!
I feel emancipated!
Free!
happy!
overjoyed!

I am almost in tears thinking about it!

I thank BAPTISTE, because he is THE REASON for this SEASON!!!! LOL
I THANK GOD, that he blessed him with A VERY GOOD JOB, that afforded us to be able to MOVE ON, and we took a great loss with this move, BUT I AM NOT GOING TO DWELL ON THAT!!!!!!

God delivered us .......
and I am ELATED!!!!!!!

STAY TUNED FOR PICS OF THE NEW HOUSE.......

UNTIL NEXT TIME.....

Knocked the wind out of me

On Thursday, Jaree had another seizure.
She's had many in her little short life of 10 years, but it's something that you CAN NEVER GET USED TOO.

I feel so helpless.
It's nothing I can do to PHYSICALLY make her better! As a mom, THAT'S A DEVASTATING FEELING. I cannot begin to describle it.

I hurt for her!
I wished I could take on all that pain, but I can't.

After being in the Er for 24 hours, I found out my baby has SWINE FLU!

That was a DOUBLE WHAMMY. It big BLOW TO ME, because I try SO HARD to do ALL THAT I CAN TO KEEP HER WELL.

She has an atypical form of epilepsy, in which most her seizures are FEBRILE, however she is too OLD TO BE HAVING FEBRILE SEIZURES. They stop at the age of 5 or 6.

She was UNCONSCIOUS for 24 hours, but not COMATOSE. That is a good thing. The brain takes a big beating when you seize, so SLEEP is how the brain recovers.

She cannot see the neurologist until next week, because of the flu.

She will have to have YET ANOTHER mri, eeg, and ekg!
I am just at a loss.

But this GIRL IS SO STRONG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
She is SUCH A FIGHTER, THAT she just amazes me.

She has been thru so much in her short life that it makes me ANGRY....
BUT WHO AM I TO QUESTION GOD??????

He doesn't make any mistakes?
I guess this is a storm that I have to weather.

Please continue to pray for my baby....
I love her Beyond any words!!!!!
But, any one reading this who is a mother, knows what I mean.

I will try to keep you updated as best I can!
She is being SPOILED BEYOND WORDS, FROM EVERYBODY!!!!!!!!

i HAVE MADE FIVE BILLION PROMISES TO HER, that I WILL KEEP, ONCE SHE GETS BETTER....

build a bear
a new game for nintendo ds
a nintendo dsi
a trip to claires and kohls for jewelry
land of the lost
and the zoo!

and those are just my promises......
Her dad has a list longer than the CONSTITUTION, but you know whaT? She deserves every bit of it.

I got her report card and my baby got all A's and one B! And she won yet another award for her reading. The mile high reading award. She reads at such a high level! I am so proud!!!!!

I have to go and take care of my baby, but I just wanted to let my blog readers know what was going on....

Until next time!

Hello world! Its me Dana! Remember me?

Wow,

It's been a minute! 

I have so much to talk about! A lot of catching up to do!

Well, I sold my HOUSE! YAY! 

I AM SO GLAD FOR THIS DRAMA TO FINALLY BE OVER!

I did lose out on some money, but you know what?  My piece OF MIND! Is PRICELESS!

I AM THANKFUL TO GOD! That we had the means to make this move! Being that Baptiste is the only one working.  I thank God, that I have a husband who has a GREAT JOB, and not only that he has the drive to go above and beyond.  He makes GREAT money on the side as a dj as well!

Now with saying all that! We are going to be BROKE FOR A VERY LONG TIME.  

We had to dig into our NEST EGG, to make this happen.  And we ARE BOTH determined to build that back first!  DID WE DEPLETE IT?  no! But I am all for STABILITY and when I was working we BANKED MY INCOME and lived out of his.  I made GOOD MONEY!  Before I quit, to care for Jaree.  I also do things on the side (nothing illegal) to make extra cash! So I do my part!  I am just a firm believer in SAVING FOR A RAINY DAY, and we have had our fair SHAIR OF STORMY WEATHER.  

OFF THAT! 

THE NEW HOUSE is a Huge Ranch style house, I will miss being able to send my kids downstairs when they get on my nerves! But I can send them outside and not worry about anybody trying to JUMP THEM!  My kids are not the type to set there and let anyone pound the SHIT OUT OF THEM, they are BLESSED WITH THEIR HANDS, lol, but people don't FIGHT FAIR anymore and my kids DON'T GO AROUND STARTING SHIT!  I raised them that way!  They mind their own business and treat others the way they want to be treated, but THEY WILL DEFEND THEMSELVES!  And people around there knew that and that is why they like to JUMP! 

BUT THAT CHAPTER IS OVER!   GOD HAS BLESSED ME WITH SOMETHING SO MUCH BETTER! 

I cannot wait to move in.  The house has to pass a VILLAGE INSPECTION, before we move in, so I am hoping in the next couple of weeks!

I will keep you all updated! 

I am so happy for this NIGHTMARE to be over! 

Thanks for all you well wishes and concerns! 

Until next time...........

Still hanging in there

Just wanted to give everyon a quick update.

I am doing FINE!
We did INDEED find a buyer!
We did lose some! But you know what I AM not going to DWELL ON THAT!
We did find a new home in Lynwood, where my mom lives.

Much better area, great schools! Everything we want!
We had to come out of lots of money to make it work, but hey that 's water under the bridge.

We are still living good. and doing the same things, just need to build back our savings!
I am my mother's child and I BELIEVE in having a NEST EGG!

I am no fool!
So that is my FIRST PRIORTIY!
rEBUILDING!

i AM COMPLETELY OUT OF THE NEW HOUSE!

we CLOSE ON THE 3RD!

CAN'T WAIT!

wILL BE GIVING YOU AN UPDATE SOON!

Until next time!

Still here!

Just wanted to let my blog readers know I am still here.  

So much craziness is going on....

But I know there is sunlight at the end of the tunnel.  

I am still hoping this sell goes thru! 

I cannot wait to move! 

I am ready!

I will be blogging again soon.  

Until next time

Two days in a row...

HOT DAMN! 

YOUR GIRL IS BACK!!!!!

I have blogged two days in a row!!!! It's going to cloud up and shit, as my mom would say...

Well, i am feeling much better! 

I have VOWED, to let ANYONE or ANYTHING, get in the way of my happiness!

That is OVER WITH......

Nothing is going to STOP MY SHINE....

YA FEEL ME! 

Well, today, I was very productive, got up at a quarter to six, finished all my laundry, cleaned my room, shampooed the carpets, and cleaned the blinds...... I would call that productive.

Now I am chilling, cruising the web: twitter, facebook,  checking out all my favorite blogs on google reader....you know living the GOOD LIFE!  HEHEHE!

Today, Baptiste and I our going to my favorite spot: BORDERS!!!!! 

I love that store.  I got some reading to do, he has some studying,  could have gone to the Library, but me likey Borders much more.   Looking for the Latest copies of Artful Blogging and Somersett Memories!!!!  My two favorite magazines!!!!!!   I love going on little dates with my husband!  In fact, I love being with my hubby period.  Most of the time, that is.  There are those times when I would pack and ship his ass right back to his MAMA......LOL

I plan to be back home in time for Idol, I don't know why I watch since they got rid of my girl Lil Rounds, but I am not mad at 'em, she just wasn't singing the right SONG!  Damn girl!

I wonder who is going home on DWTS, it better not be LIL KIM, that is all I know!!!!!!!!

I did get a chance to see Obsessed.  It was Good!  Just thought Beyonce could have been a wee bit more convincing!!!!  

I already saw Wolverine!!!! It was the SHIT!!!!! HUGH JACKMAN is TOTAL EYE CANDY, even with Thundercat hair and freddy fingers......LOL

Well, I hope all of you are doing well! I am!  Better than I thought I would be..

Thanks for all your prayers and words of encouragement!!!! It means the world to me and Adrienne and Bonnie, I did not forget you guys.  I am going by the post office today!!!  

Until next time....

Happy Monday!

Warning, this post is all over the place.  Because my mind is all over the place!

First off, I had a blast Saturday!  My sister Tracy and I gave my mom a 65th birthday celebration and it TURNED OUT GREAT!!!  But, I am TIRED AS HELL.  My mom is a SLAVE DRIVER.  I got my DRANK ON.   At one point, my dad was looking at me CROSSED EYED, or maybe I was so tipsy, I was cross eyed, but any hoo, you get the point.  I was FUGGED UP! LOL

Of course Baptiste was the dj, and man I got my dance on!!!!!! 

All the kids love me, because I can do every single thing they do!  They are so amazed.  Look kids 34 AIN'T OLD.   I can still drop it like it's hot!  Shit, how you think you GOT HERE.   Do you think mama was dropping it like it was COLD....LOL

OK, yes, I am in a silly mood!  It happens once I snap out my depression!

That's another thing, I have vowed NOT TO LET ANYONE OR ANYTHING get me down.  I have this FUCK IT attitude.   I just have to let shit go, because life is TOO DAMN SHORT FOR BULLSHIT!   

Ok, moving right along:

I have a potential buyer for the house! But they are getting a VA loan, and the gov't does SHIT ON THEIR own time!!!! I hope to be out of here by JUNE 1ST!   We have a wonderful realtor, we love you CArla,  and she got my house appraised for way more than what we thought, the girl is a miracle worker.   ATLEAST, we are not upside down, and have some equity in the house, we were considering just renting it out, but I don't want to pay these ridiculously high taxes over here.   

As for us, WE HAVE FOUND NOTHING, well nothing in Stone, we are looking!!!!!   I am definitely going to take my time and find the RIGHT HOUSE in A NICE NEIGHBORHOOD, with a good SCHOOL.    I didn't consider any of those things when I bought this house.  I was just so happy to OWN A HOME, my mistake, I HAVE LEARNED FROM IT, moving forward......

It has been NOTHING BUT crazy weather in Chicago....HOT, COLD, HOT, COLD....COLD, HOT,COLD, HOT, the weather is BIPOLAR in the midwest!!!! LOL

Switching lanes here, I was watching the view,  really listening, and I hate DISCUSSING RELIGION, I really do.  Some people are really combative about their beliefs, so STEER clear from those types of conversations.  I am a CHRISTIAN, I don't apologize for it, I believe in GOD, and that is that......END OF DISCUSSION!

In other news, I have not scrapbooked, but when I was on a roll I completed so many projects, that I did not share!!! I have so much on my TO DO LIST, it's not even funny!!!!! 

My scrapbook supplies, is the LAST thing I pack.  Like the day I move pack, because it travels with me!  It's the computer, the flat screen, the pets, and my scrapbook supplies!  LOL

I have been clearing my expedit off and boxing stuff up, but they are not sealed, and I can go in it and get whatever I want out of it.  I need to go by the post office and start getting some priority boxes.  I put my paper in those!

I am so behind in my reading....

I am behind in laundry....

I am behind in my tv programs....

Ugh, I have to get it together yall!!!!

I have been having so many pity parties, until I have not had much chance for anything else.

I have cried an OCEAN, but I am good now.....

It's over with, now it's time to pick myself up and keep it moving...

It is hard, when you know you made THE WORST MISTAKE of your life,  I just thank God, I don't have anybody saying I TOLD YA SO!!!!! I beat myself up enough!!!!!  I knew this neighbor hood was questionable when I moved in......YES I DID!   I just thought if I kept to myself, and kept my children busy, we would BE OKAY.  And we were, at FIRST, but it's not like that now.   Knowing that I made a mistake, that put my children at RISK, is heartbreaking for me.   But you know what, I am rectifying it now!  I just wanted MY OWN!   I was TIRED OF RENTING.  I wanted something that was DANA'S AND BAPTISTE'S!  ANY WAY....

We will be buying again, thank God, it's a buyer's market!  But, we will take our time and research, before buying.  We have our eye on a 3 houses in particular, put us in a higher mortgage, but hey gotta do what you gotta do!  It's not going to kill us,  we live GOOD.  Thank God for that!   We hope to be in our home by August, before the kids go back to school.  Depending on how quickly we get everything from this house!  

I plan on getting my RELAX ON, after I get my clean on!!!!!  Now that I got mom out of the way, things are some what back to normal.  I got so much to do.  So little time......Story of my life!!!!

Well, this post is getting extra long, and extra RANDOM......

so until next time!!!!!

It's Friday Baby.....

My kids asked me where did FLAVOR FLAV come from? I just laughed, because they only know him from Flavor of Love, but they don't know the history. So you know I had to school them right! I told him that Flavor Flav was the hype man for Public Enemy, and he used to wear a huge clock on his neck, that is why he gave clocks on his show........


They didn't even know who Chuck D was!!!! LOL

It was hilarious....

I told them don't believe the hype......
Flavor Flav been around for a long time and he is old enough to be my daddy......LOL


Happy Friday!!!!!
Be safe
Have fun!

It's been a looooong time! Warning (PICTURE HEAVY)

Can you believe it!!!!! My baby is 10 years old.  She was born Sunday April 18, 1999 at 2:56 pm.  That seems like yesterday, but she is just 1/2 inch shorter than me,  and the height and weight I was as a sophmore in high school.  This girl is SOLID.  Not fat! Stacked.  I don't know what to do! LOL

And yes I am crying.   We had her party at the Lynwood Roller Rink, where ROLL BOUNCE was filmed.  She had a ball.  Can you tell?

The last hour of the party they let them dance on the floor and that's her doing the stanky leg! LOL
'

I don't know what Baptiste caught Raven (Jaree's godmother) doing but he caught her...LOL

Jaree is a mess, she SNAKED Li-Li with the frosting!

But they still love each other

Can you tell???

I don't know what  that hound dog was saying, but he was being a little hound doggish!  Dude, she's 10, back the hell up!!!

That's my baby!

I think this is why he was following her around!!!! Hmmmmm, I may have to put him to sleep.  LOL

this girl is a mess, she slowed down on her skates so I could get a picture.  

The whole crew!

Doesn't Jaree look my dad!

I told this girl skates and acrylic nails can be dangerous, but she didn't listen!  She didn't crack one nail, maybe her butt, but not her NAILS! LOL  I took tons more pictures, but I didn't want blogger to shut down.  You can check out the rest on my facebook!

I took these pictures Easter, we didn't dress up this year or go to CHURCH, I know, first time for EVERYTHING, but I have been going through a lot lately and I did not feel like it.  I don't think the kids were up for it either, but we still went by mom's and had dinner.  

My baby is growing up!

This boy has his own style!  I love that about him. Both my boys do!  I love that they have different personalities.  Jariel IS SOOOOOOOOOOOO COOOL and Laid back!!!

and yes he decided to get a mohawk!!!

Yep, that's Jari!!! My precious baby boy, Now why would anybody want to hurt him.  He is the most loving child in the world!   My gentle giant.  He is only 12, but looks a good 15!  He is as tall as his brother.   I love this kid!  LOL

And then you have Mr. B!!!!!  He is my COMEDIAN, he keeps you laughing.  He is FLASHY!!!! He has a gazillion pairs of gym shoes, his shoes have to match every single outfit (Thank God he has a job).  He has a lot of baseball caps, jewelry, flashy belts.  He reminds me so much of my brother Marcus and my uncle Bud!!!!!  He can iron his butt off, his creases in pants are still in there when he washes his pants!!!  His nickname from his friends is Mr. Neat-Neat!  Yes, that describes him well.  

My children and their friends are very talented.  I took these pictures for their MIXTAPE, they rap and sing and they are GOOD.  I AM NOT SAYING that, just because they belong to me, because I can BE CRITICAL, but they are talented.   

Here we have the ladies of P1K

Look at Jaree and my niece Keyah, second from the left!  they are a mess!

Had to explain to my daddy that this was just ARTISTIC EXPRESSION! LOL  

The whole crew!

MY FAVORITE SHOT OF ALL!!!!!  Their mixtape is coming out June 1st!  Be on the look out for P1K!!!!!

THAT'S ALL GUYS!!! 

I got tons more to share so stay tuned!!!!!!

Wooooosah!

I am still here....

Going thru tons of stress, and then tons more...
My son Jariel was attacked on Saturday, April 4th, by a bunch of PUNK ASS jealous children! He was hit in the back, but NOT SERIOUSLY injured. I am LIVID. It made me rethink this whole DAMN house situation. I really have not been happy in my home for the last 6 months, new IGNORANT ass people moved in and I know people are not supposed to run you away, but my kids LIFE and MY PIECE A MIND is worth more than ANY DAMN HOUSE. I have decided to put the house on the market and start over, yes my house is not as worth as much as what I paid, but at this point, I DO NOT GIVE A DAMN!!!!!!

Everyday, it's BULLSHIT! I can't live like that! I need to know if my child is walking down the DAMN street, he isn't going to be ambushed by some STUPID ass kids!

I am so mad! I am so hurt! and far more angry, but I know God has something BETTER FOR ME. This is not for me. but, I kinda knew the area wasn't the greatest, when I moved there, but the house WAS A STEAL! We lived here for almost 2 years problem free, because we mind our own damn business! But I guess that wasn't enough.

I am really hurt by all this and far more angry.

Please continue to pray for me and my family, through these troubling time...
Please!!!!

Two days in a row....

I am on a roll.

I got Blog fevah!!!!!!!

I have been doing so much that I got sidetracked, but I have learned to BALANCE, I think? LOL

Am I the only one who is hooked on FACEBOOK AND TWITTER!
OMG! As if I need any more Vices!!! LOL

I have found so many of my HIGH SCHOOL BUDDIES and even GRAMMAR SCHOOL BUDDIES on Facebook! I couldn't be more thrilled. In fact, I am in the works of planning a get together with my Cassell and Mt. Greeenwood buddies from Grammar School. I went to Cassell in the 2nd grade, it was the first time I was in a integrated school. I was so scared! I had NEVER SEEN THAT MANY WHITE PEOPLE in my life!!!!! And I didn't know what to expect. I was only 6 1/2 years old. I had to go to this school, because I was not being challenged enough at my old school as I was RIDICIOUSLY smart! Like GENIUS smart. So they placed me at this school for Gifted students. Off the bat, I made so many friends. They took me in, and at that moment I didn't SEE BLACK OR WHITE, I saw my FRIENDS! 10 of us, REMAINED close friends to this day, and the rest of us fell off. We were FAMILY, I can remember my good friend Denise (our sons our best friends, Bee and Nic) lived right behind the school, and on recess we would sneak to the GATE, and her dad would give us juice and cookies!!!!! I can remember when my friend Patsy's mom died of EPILEPSY and the ENTIRE 3rd grade, walked to St. Christina Church (my first time in a Catholic church) and we sang a song, recited a poem, and the family was so pleased with how well behaved we were. Of course we were, Mrs. McKnight didn't play! She used to be RUTHLESS with that Ruler!!!!! I never fell VICTIM of the ruler whacking!!!! NO NO, not me!!!!! LOL Cassell only had one or two rooms for each grade, by the time we were in 4th, there was only one room per grade, so we were together until we graduated out of 6th grade. In fact, we had Ms. McKnight for 2nd and 3rd grade and Mrs. Maebane for 5th and 6th.

Now I can remember all my teachers, my Kindergarten teacher was Ms. Crowley, 1st Mr. Harris, 2nd Ms Perry (she pulled my hair and my grandmother came up to school and knocked her out, yep I remember that) I transferred and that's when I had Ms. McKnight for 2nd and 3rd, then 4th grade Ms. Hines (she slipped on a crayon, that I threw at somebody in the class, and slipped a disk in her back, I felt horrible, but that didn't stop me from laughing hysterically!) and for 5th and 6th I had Ms. Maebane. Now I am going to stop there......

You nevet knoe how A TEACHER can have such a STRONG IMPACT on your life and I had two teachers in my life that LITERALLY saved my life! The first was my 2nd and 3rd grade teacher Ms. Mc Knight. When I got to Cassell, I felt like a fish out of water! I mean it was only a handful of kids that looked like me in the class. I was a gorgeous little girl! Pretty eyes, long THICK HAIR, and full pretty lips! It was in 3rd grade where I started to suffer an IDENTITY CRISIS, I wanted a perm, (my mom wasn't having it), because my curly hair, didn't fit in with the long and straight flowing hair, that I was seeing ......My mom only would press my hair on SPECIAL OCCASSIONS, but I wanted the world to KNOW how LONG MY HAIR REALLY WAS..... I mean my little short curly pigtails, were not CUTTING IT! I wanted my hair to blow in the wind like my friends! One day, I went in the corner and I started to cry, and Ms. McKnight found me before any of my classmates NOTICED, and she seemed puzzled as to why, I was crying. I was a FIESTY little kid, so she knew I was not being PICKED ON, and so she asked was I ok, I told her I was ok, and she said "Awwww, I know.... and I looked at her.... She said you don't like what you see when you look in the mirror! I said...what do you mean..... She said Ms. Payne, YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL! You have the most beautiful smile, like an angel, it lights up the room! You have the prettiest CURLY HAIR, just like I didi when I was your age, she said my hair has been relaxed, and now it's straight and thin, but your HAIR is gorgeous! You have pretty brown smooth skin! and she did this all while having me look in her small mirror she kept in her desk! At that moment, I started to believe that I was OK, JUST THE WAY I WAS......

Fast forward to 5th and 6th grade, I met the MOST INFLUENTIAL teacher I had....
and she wa a TOUCH COOKIE...

Miss Maebane. My first impression of Miss Maebane was that she WAS MEAN!
She would yell, she would slam things down, she even hit Phillip Ford with some scissors, and I was kind of COCKY at this age, and I was saying in my mind "I wish she WOULD, try to pull that SHIT with me". Me and Mrs. Maebane never had a run in. I did what I was supposed to do and she NEVER HAD TO PULL IT WITH ME. Well I had always been smart, but in 5th grade it's not COOL to have your HEAD in the books all the time, it wasn't cool that I would rather skip recess and stay insided and help the teacher grade papers, and fix the bulletin board. I quickly was called a NERD OR TEACHER'S PET or SOMETHING MUCH WORSE a "ASS KISSER". I was in NO WAY SHAPE OR FORM THE LATTER. I didn't mind being called a nerd or teacher's pet as much , but ME A BROWN NOSER, I don't think so. So I began to change, my grades were slipping, I was getting into trouble, and I was FAR MORE rebellious! I was getting into fights all the time and I WASN'T LOSING, so it made me APPEAR to be a BULLY! The only thing that saved me from getting in trouble was MY GRADES!

One day, I was in the bathroom! And Ms. Maebane came in and made everybody LEAVE..
This was an UNCOMFORTABLE SITUATION for me, so I gave her this look like...
I wish you would PULL IT....

and that's when I was on the floor....
I don't know what happened, but I was on my butt!
Mrs. Maebane was crouched over me and said is this what you want, to be down here with the dirt? And I was squirming using all my might to get up, but she wasn't BUDGING! LOL
And this is what she said that woke me up "you will reside in DIRT permantly if you DO NOT GET YOUR ACT TOGETHER, you cannot WHOOP THE WORLD, you willl MEET YOUR MATCH one of these days and it MIGHT NOT END PRETTY" You need to stop. You are NOT A DUMMY, THIS IS NOT who YOU ARE!!! You are too SMART FOR THIS SHIT" and yes she said SHIT. Everytime you act up for the remainder of the year, you will be right where you are now, on your butt , because I will find you and put you there. You will bring your grades up, you will get your self together and you will stop acting like a DAMN FOOL. She lifted me off my feet with the FORCE OF WONDER WOMAN, so much so I almost flew into the wall. This WOMAN PUT FEAR INTO MY HEART, the only PEOPLE IN MY LIFE, that EVER PUT FEAR, was my GRANNY AND MY MOM! I was scared! I stopped FIGHTING, I brought my grades up, and I was at the top of my class. This woman believed in me, MORE THAN I BELIEVED IN MYSELF, she didn't give p on me, She was DETERMINED that I made something of myself, and I thank her for it...

What if she didn't stop me? What if she wouldn't have said anything? I am not going to Lie, I was A BEAST! LOL I never PICKED FIGHTS, but I sure FINISHED IT UP! I HAVE 4 brothers, I wasn't NO JOKE!!! LOL I fought boys, girls were NEVER a match for me. Even to this day, Baptiste and I will play fight and wrestle and he is amazed at how STRONG I AM. LOL But, I learned to walk away from fights instead of being involved in one....

I have gone several times to Cassell to see my FAVORITE TEACHERS!!! They are both retired now, but I still keep in touch! I owe my life to these two women, they both SAVED ME FROM SELF DESTRUCTION!!!! I am eternally grateful!!!

the whole reason of my absence! LOL

But first, Let's talk 80's Jaree had a 80's party at her school and I chapperoned and the hubs was the deejay! It was so fun, so much so that we are planning an 80's party for ourselves over the summer. We've done the 70's, and even the 90's, BUT NEVER THE 80'S!!! CAN' T WAIT! HERE ARE A FEW PICS FROM THE PARTY:

JAREE WITH BEST FRIEND JAZZY!


that one dimple drives me crazy. So sexy! Anyway he was jamming! LOL

It's Madonna, no it's just Mrs. Greggus!
Everyone likes to take pics except for JAREE! LOL
MY FAVORITE SHOT!

Jaree and buddy LaLa
Jaree and Sky! Love the pink hair. LOL
Jaree didn't want to keep those gloves on! LOL
Jaree getting ticked off because I kept stopping her to take pics! LOL

But when she got home she was full of poses and guess what? my camera battery died. O well! LOL

So if you were wondering where I have been:





That's right I have been scrapping like a maniac!!!!!


But I have also been working feverishly in this:

It sucks me in. Can't seem to think about anything else. LOL

Here are my latest entries!















The pictures really doesn't do it any justice, but I have been having so much fun working in it!!!!!!! Plan on working in it some more today!!!!

Also just started another project, so I am what I call "A SCRAPPING FOOL" right now!

I have also been Facebooking and Twittering, which has taken me away from my blog! But I promise to blog more and keep in contact with my blog family!


Until next time!!!!!!